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A loss?
Saturday, August 21, 2004 10:45 PM I saw her today. And I knew she saw me too. But it hurts me so much. Till now, I still don't know what's the reason that causes us to end up this way. It's never like in the past where we will be so delighted to see each other and hug each other whenever we meet up. It's so sudden when things change. What had happened to our 8 years of friendship? Even when I close my eyes now, I will see her frowning fierce face instead of the friendly one which always makes me feel good. What's the definition of buddy? Perhaps I have never been a good friend at all. But in my heart, she will always be my best friend. And I know I had never betrayed her at all. Perhaps I will never be able to know the reason till the day I die. I mean, I REALLY DON'T KNOW what's wrong. I think over and over again what had happened in these past few months. And no, I can't think of a reason. Because the last time we met, which is quite sometime back, everything is JUST SO FINE. Perhaps I should just move on without thinking so much. I am glad that she looks pretty fine to me. As long as she is happy, it doesn't matter if we will never speak again. Friends? If it's meant to be, it will be forever. At least I know I truly appreciate those who appreciate me too. Especially Sherine and Huijun. And of course my dearest Dennis. It will be a better day tomorrow. Because it's my birthday. :) Thanks for all the concern about Hamu-chan. It really makes me feel better. Thanks peeps! Thanks... Hamu-chan is fine... thou her growth is still there. But I believe she is strong. And she will be with me on my big day. :D Good night peeps! [added] My zip disk seems to be corrupted. My drive cannot read it and it keeps prompting me to format it. Any idea if I can retrieve my data? I need it BADLY... [/added]
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