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Tuesday, November 16, 2004 1:04 AM It must be this lonesome night that makes me feel so uptight. Things that I hate to recall just keep appearing in my mind. And Hamu-chan. Her tumor bleeds this morning. It hurts me so much. Putting her to sleep is the last thing I want to do to her. But seems like I don't have other choice... Can anyone PLEASE tell me what to do? I wish I could be replaced for the pain she is suffering. She is like my flesh... Although she is just my pet hamster. Is that smile on me is genuine? I felt uneasy about it. That smile... that seems to be hiding something. I really wanna shout out loud. I felt so pissed off with myself. I felt as if I am cheating my own feelings. Why must I always keep quiet? Why can't I just be crazy? Is there something that I should do to make myself happy? I think I need a psychiatrics. I am loved by so many. My family and my guy. But why am I still feeling this way? What's lacking? Attention? A life? Oh, it's no what hoo-ha. It's just me. Gawd, Anne. Get a freaking life!
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